Last week, I stopped looking at myself in the mirror. I don't mean staring into the mirror, searching for my soul; I mean all together, I avoid it.
I have committed to this act of bravery because I want to know Nessessary, who she is inside, not out. I want to develop my qualities inwardly and reflect them onto who and what I come into contact with, allowing others to be the mirrors I spent hours across a week gazing into out of vanity.
My sense of self has been building up in me for quite some time and I noticed that as I desired to become more aware of myself, I spent more time in the mirror. I feel this is a hindrance for me because I was constantly judging myself by standards I had learned from a dominant culture not concerned with my inner qualities. Further, this culture wants me to see myself as a whole, rather than a part of the world, connected to other necessary (Nessessary) parts.
My ongoing experiment without the mirror is teaching me that I am one with everything and all is Nessessary. I am also realizing how many items I use daily that actually contain my reflection: the frame around my laptop, vehicles, knobs on cabinets, etc. Funny how when I try to avoid something, I notice it more...
So talk to me (write to me), are you aware of how much time you spend in the mirror every day? Why do you look into it? How do you feel while gazing? What are some of your thoughts as you admire or attack your image? Is it possible or even plausible to seek your reflection via the faces of other people, animals, plants, machinery, etc.?
very intellectual..You wanted me to enter into the comvo so here are my thoughts:
ReplyDeleteI don't look in the mirror often. Only when I wash my face, brush my teeth, brishing my hair. I don't wear makeup unless I do my eyes when I go out for a drink & dancing. Which isn't ofter. I do look in my car mirrors to fix my sunglasses & when I need them for direction. I used to care about that stuff alot in my teens and maybe even in my early 20's. But now I coould care less. Makeup is supposed to bring out your best facial features. (Like eyeliner or some may use it to cover pimples.) People use it to make a whole new face so they look beautiful to other people.I am beautiful w/o makeup. I don't care what other people think I should look like. I am comfortable in my own skin.
I Hope you are comfortable in yours. LUV U =)
Thanks Cousin for commenting!!!! I love you :-)
ReplyDeleteYes, I am becoming more comfortable in my own skin as I develop daily. I used to care about my outer imager more when I was in high school as well, wearing make-up often and judging my beauty by what others found attractive. We have so much in common!
Maybe I should start looking at the mirrors in my car at least...no wonder I've been excessively honked at in the past couple of weeks :-)